Confused

I am darn confused now..

I thought i let u off..
But why can't i forget bout it..
am i cheating on myself?
Or maybe i really do..

After meeting up..
Even i know there's another him..
I still can't get myself off..
And u are so close to me.. Haihz..
speechless.. Cham..

It seems i lost in this..
I'm Gonna be sacrifice..
Gone.. Dead..

Byez.. I don't want to meet u!!!
Can i do that.. haihz..

Really confused..
What am i thinking?
What should i do??
I know i'm cheating on myself..
But.. I had no other choices..
>.<"